I dont know what to do…

… sometimes there is a lot going on in ones life – well actually thats just the subjective feeling, but its how i feel right now. Im lost in my so-called life… afraid of missing something and while wondering about all that stuff that Im missing I forget about living. I wonder about the future although I cant make any plans anyway… Well, I could make plans, but they are influenced by unforeseen events that you cant plan. I wonder if I fail by making a decision, but I guess there are no mistakes bc you never know what would have happened otherwise. 

Life is short – thats for sure. I wish I wouldnt know… If you know it seems even shorter. When you are a teenager you dont care about tomorrow and you just live for the moment. I wish I could still do that – well I still love to be goofy and to do crazy stuff, but it seems that there is always this voice in your head „think about the consequences“. I guess this is not too bad since you avoid getting locked up – thats the good part – but it keeps you from making great new experiences and getting this frenzied feeling… it makes you a little cautious…

I definitely have to many things I would like to achieve than time to live… I guess I have to make some decisions – I cant make plans since my life is changing constantly – but I have ideas and possibilities – and the intersections is my future – lets collect some ideas then ….